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I am the one who is interested and he is the one who is too tired. Obviously sex has changed for us and i am less actively involved than I used to.

How's that for a twist on things.

Oh, smiles, it isn't funny, but it is, if you know what I mean. Sometimes, when faced with another twisted situation I look up at the sky, and not sure who I'm talking to, but say, "c'mon already, you gotta be kidding me, enough."

I've been known to look to the skies and shout that out and attract attention from strangers but I always get a laugh out of it when that happens.

You know, maybe I'm going all paranoid or something, but I think I'm getting the reputation of being 'the crazy lady' in the area where I live. Sometimes I have a cane, sometimes I don't, sometimes I'm shuffling, sometimes I'm walking more normally, I've started talking to myself sometimes just to encourage me to take those few extra steps (and from being home alone a lot). I rarely can co-ordinate myself in an outfit that matches and my hair is so often unbrushed and unkept, and so on. And then I rant at the sky. LOL.


I'm 52 and the 'crazy lady' that every area seems to need has has started to look normal to me. So much so that a few months ago I saw her in the street and stopped and talked to her and guess what -- she's an intelligent interesting woman and she's not crazy at all. Or we're both stark raving mad. LOL.

Yep, I gave this one up too about 12 yrs ago. Before that I was very energetic, but a new im#potent boyfriend slowed me down a good bit. I figured he would come around but it never happened, and when he started to complain about every thing I did, I bought my own house and left. I then found he was being the same way with other women at the same time. He married, and she was the smartest of us all as she left him in less than 6 months.
My next fella, my sweetie, that I talk about all the time--I had POTS when we met, but didn't know it yet. Our first time we used protection, but it broke, and I got herpes,and I did not feel like I wanted to mess with sex any more. I felt very bad about myself. I had not been a rounder ever, but that experience really shut me down. He cried when he found out but we are still together, and we snuggle, but that is it. I think my immune system was down as I only have outbreaks when my POTS or dysautonomia is fixing to run full blast. He is like many others here, he does so many things for me--fresh flowers constantly, special treats, helping me, doing all the cooking. I love him, but he is 70 and I will be 60 in 2 months, so we have both had plenty of sex in our lives, and snuggling or hugging are enough now. I am grateful for that. I am having bladder problems, and rectal bleeding, etc, and sex just might put me over the edge right now.

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